Sad Day

It is really and truly the end of a chapter of my life. Joshua and I are going our separate ways. Things were said by both of us that cannot be taken back, making our baggage more than we can work past now.

I feel crushed, heart broken, angry, shocked, scared (or "scary," as Ashley and I like to say to make us sound tougher than we are feeling), and so sad. I get nauseated when I read his Facebook status updates because I interpret them to mean he is living life fine without me.

It seems like I experience a different emotion every hour of the day. I know I won't feel this way forever. I know that I've been through basically the same thing before. It hurts so much, though.

Due to the above mentioned, I may be going through some major life changes by the end of 2009. I will let you know those changes as they make themselves clearer to me.